Change is tough

School started and some things around the house changed. For example... homeschooling. I absolutely loved homeschooling Sweet T last year. This year, however, as she entered into her 6th grade year, she was torn between seeing her fiends and being active at the Christian School she adores or staying home with mom again. My hope was to be homeschooling both kids this year, but Little J needs that extra time learning along side his peers, so that was not going to happen.

After many tears, we decided to enroll Sweet T back into school. She is happy there. Truly blessed and loved there. While that makes my mama heart happy, It's bittersweet. My sidekick isn't at my side all day anymore. Any other moms out there that can relate? Change is tough.

Since her going back to school, my time has been filled with taking time to repair myself physically. One of the other moms is a fitness instructor and I joined her gym and have loved the classes I've started. I'm not going to lie... Change is tough.

I'm also healing myself spiritually. My heart is thousands of miles away, across an ocean in an Eastern European Orphanage. The kids' hearts are there too. I'm learning to press in and listen to God and it's weird, I find myself looking at souls rather then people. A lot of my thoughts and "beliefs" are not the same anymore. I find myself seeing how I am aligning my heart and mind more to the Lord's will then my own. Change is tough.

While change is tough. It's all a part of leaving a living legacy. It takes action, It takes heart, and it takes faith. We are a living legacy, what we choose to do with who we are will show the world what God is doing. Because "Jesus is more interested in who we're becoming than who we were. He doesn't want us to become like each other, He wants us to be like Him." (Maria Goff, Love Lives Here) Therefore, we must let our faith be bigger then our fear.