Yes, this is why!

I've had several people ask me "Why would you WANT to adopt a child with special needs?" My first response is, "I never did" Often, in my shock and confusion of how or why would they ask that, I can't find the words to reply, but today, I have a better understanding. It's because God calls us to the "least of these". I've considered how often I refer to myself as a "Christian",  a "woman of faith", or referred to doing something as "stepping out on faith". But I haven't done anything of the sorts, what I've done is succumb to the belief that saying these things justifies what I am doing or the reasons I am doing them. I've never stepped out on faith unless I had a place of security to fall back on. Therefore, I haven't been fully relying on the Lord as my rock, my strong tower, my foundation. 

God has called me out on this. He is convicting me. He has shown me the options and the things I've never thought I'd feel, want, or desired to do... He's holding me accountable.   My fears have out weighed my beliefs and I've masked them with "praying on it". But no longer can I ignore who God has ransomed me to be.

I'm being called to go where others dare, to be a Christian in action. My fears for adopting a child of any need are the same as for my children now. Why am I so content at being a Christian woman, wife, mother, and role-model if at best, I'm a liar, hypocrite, and weak person. Because, that's who God calls on. I'm not concerned about the changes my family will have to endure, I'm terrified of giving up my comforts- It's harsh, but it's reality. The golden years of my life are in heaven, so why do I worry if I'll be able to travel when I retire. I want my children to be a part of my life that I enjoy until the Lord calls me home, not until they are away from me.

Do I have concerns for my children now? Don't we all. Will I need to plan? I need to now.  So what really than will change? a different schedule, more boo-boos to kiss, another child to love, another person to change our world. My relationship with God has already changed and not a day goes by that I don't cry at the sight or thought of a child dying... alone and unloved... waiting for someone to ransom them. Christ fulfilled God's word and shed his blood for my life, what would we give for a life? It's easier said then done, but I'm not talking any more.

I'm ready to radically move and serve my LIVING GOD.