Spring Break

Spring Break week was overwhelming to say the least. We visited Disney World for the first time. Driving 24 hours to get there was fun, as we love road trips, but the hustle and bustle and excitement was exhausting. It was a wonderful time of family, fellowship, and blessings. I tried to take in as much as possible without going on sensory overload, the crowds were huge.

Our first day at a park, the boys went to wait in line for a ride and James and I hunted for a coffee shop. As we realized it was quite a trek, we started off. Not 2 minutes into the walk James asked if we were going to do this? I said YES, I need a coffee. He said, “No, are we really going to adopt?” Okay, this is where I should have been jumping up and down, freaking out, and screaming YES! But I didn’t. I said, “It’s up to you.” Why did I say that? I wanted to jump out of my skin. He replied, “why me?”… “You’re the head of our household; you need to be ready for this.” I know I was confused as to why those words came from my mouth. It was a Wow God moment! Me not putting in my opinion or say yes because it’s what I want, but God working through me, guiding me, and me trusting in him fully.  James told me he’d pray on it. My selfish side wants to say, “never mind, yes we’re doing it.. Moving on.” But it’s what God wants and expects from us: Faith and Prayer.

As I mentioned earlier, the crowds were huge, however every time I turned around, I saw the smiling face of a DS child and the more D's sweet face came to mind. What is he doing right now? Is he being held, loved, sung to? Does he know how much God loves him? I want him to experience the Hope of Jesus, the love of a family, and the grace we have at the cross. Every bus we boarded, line we stood in, and person we dealt with, I thought of Chris, Cameron, and D doing them together. Chris brought up adopting too on the trip, so I shared with him what James said. Of course Chris wanted to know why I didn’t just tell James “yes!”, but he understands that this is a relational growth with God and we have to be patient. The boys are ready though. They want to bring their brother home, regardless of where he comes from. Still prayerful, but see God working in us and growing us daily.